Striking Eyes

Today I realised just how far off the dream I have fallen. How jaded I am. How cynical I have become. How stupid. How lost. Yet, in some corner of my mind, perhaps the dream was never to be. I don't even know anymore. I've spent too long thinking and to be honest I think its about time I started doing.

"You can still do what you love and live the lifestyle you want what." and "Lifeless". Two comments which cut deep to the core. My heart hasn't stopped so many times in one afternoon since I was 14. Did what she say make sense? Yes. Do I agree? Yes. Do I think she's right? Yes...and no. Why? Its almost inexplicable...except for the fact that I believe in myself and that the way I go about my work is right. Compartmentalization seems to be the way to be successful.

I asked myself today. Do I love finance? The answer is a resounding yes. So while you may not ever read this, I thank you. Your questions answered many things for me today. I love what I do...and thats why I do it. The money is certainly a large part. But I certainly wouldn't do it if I had no interest whatsoever...unless the pay is extremely attractive (But thats another story for another day).

Today has shown me that sometimes I need a good shock to the system. A kick in the teeth. It didn't hurt that she was fiery enough to stand up to me. It didn't hurt that she had striking eyes and a brilliant smile. And it certainly didn't hurt that her words have been the rudest Christmas present in all my life...yet somehow the most valuable and probably will be the most memorable.

Merry Christmas